Back Stabbers and Betrayal

This totally sucks. I was the captain. I made every game, even when I had a fever, even when I could have sworn that I was going to cough a lung up... and then this happens. They choose Mel to recieve the award. The only reason I can think of is that she had a better average than me. She probably had a 60 somethin' and I probably had a 70 somethin', but still........ still...

I am so fed up with it. The few times I've given total commitment to something it turns around and stabs me in the back. My Venturing Crew did the same thing. Venturing is bi-sexual Boy Scouts. And the crew that was started for the truly interested people was over-ridden by assholes and delinquints. We wanted to get rid of them, but there was no legal way that we could. Every time I tried to turn it into the exciting thing that it was meant to be they'd just scoff and ignore everything that I had to say. Anyway, I ended up quitting because it wasn't Venturing; it was a once a week social hour for rejects who wanted to get away from their families...

And now golf. Mrs. Riley probably thought that because I bad mouthed it all the time that I wasn't interested... But would someone who wasn't interested attend every game at the expence of their health? Oh well, I don't mean to be self centered, but knowing Mrs. Riley as I do, I'd have at least thought that maybe she'd let me recieve the award to spark my interest...

Just forget it. I feel like shit right now...