whoopsies...

nvm... I can't read. I thought they were closing my account, but it was just a notice regarding some downtime. Oh well. I guess it's been a while. I'm a MySpacer now, but I won't soon forget blogger, lol. anyway, i'm just checking up on a few things at the moment. My MySpace url is cjnina4ever if you want to check it out.

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! DON"T KILL ME!!!! I don't want to lose this blog! Not yet! I'm using MySpace at the moment, but I still want this one!!! It contains so many memories!!!!

X_x

Taylor Hicks is the new American Idol! YAY! I will buy his records.

Gram's coming home today. I'm going to see her after school.

I feel like shit. I went to a new doctor yesterday. Didn't like her too much. She's my mom's doctor. Mom's trying to convert everyone over to her doctor. It wasn't any fun. They took six vials of blood (3 big, 3 small) and gave me all my shots. Meningitus, Tetanus, and a TB test. The tetanus is killing me. My left shoulder is frozen stiff and my other muscles are achey too. I want to go to bed. My day is officially over, but i can't go home. We have a sub in English so i don't really want to go, but Mom doesn't want me leaving early again. Mr. Gannon's not even here! I'm probably gonna skip it and see what happens.

:( & :)

Gram's gone to California to be with Uncle George and his family. She'll be back next Friday. On her way back she'll stay with Uncle David in Georgia for two days. I hope she has fun.

On to less pertinent things!

Yay! Taylor's still on! But I'm kinda sad that Elliott went. I had really hoped that Katherine would've gone, but i kinda figured that this would happen. If Elliott were still on, Taylor would have a clear shot. Oh well, he may aswell deserve his victory. Kattie is a tough oponent, as much as i don't like her bouncy voice. She's very popular and she's pretty. If only she could find a range and stick with it. Then i would have a problem. Anyway... Yeah...

READ THE ADVENTURES OF ORANGE!!!! It's my current work on FictionPress. Please read it and review! It's actually very funny.

That's it for now. I'm sure i'll post again later today...

On to my story!

Over the Rainbow? Or Down the Toilet?

Okay. I don't usually give a flying fuck and really don't, but i needed a good rant. I never liked American Idol...

Okay...

I just watched the remaining female, Katharine McPhee, do a horrific rendition of over the rainbow. I was appalled at the praise she recieved! Look, she's beautiful and she can have a nice voice, but she jumps around the scale a bit much. I can't sing! But i do know when others can't. And it's not just her!

Eliot Yamin is just a plain flop. He sucks. Bad.

VOTE TAYLOR HICKS!!!!! NOW!!!! He's active, jumpy, spunky, and a great performer. He can move and sing at the same time! Multitasking! Okay call: 1-866-4365703 and vote Taylor Hicks!!!!! NOW!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????

Where are you Baarsma??????!!!!!!

So... Tired...

Day 2 of post-spring break activity. I'm like beyond exhausted. My back and hips hurt; I think it's the weather. Been gross. Muggy. Wet, hot/cold, and humid.. gross.

I accepted to Mercyhurst College over the break. It's only like six hours away in Erie, Pennsylvania. Whatever, it has what i want.

I'm so friggin tired. I want to go home and sleep. I went to bed fairly early last night, but i feel so unrested.

Prom is Saturday. -_-; My mask is done, my dress has been altered (twice), I have the shoes, I have the jewelry, and i'm gonna get my contacts sometime this week. All i have to do is go to the mall, get a contact eye examination (different from a regular eye examination), and i get my contacts right then and there. Fun. I have bi-focals (you didn't know?) so i plan on just getting the distance perscription. More fun. I just want to see at prom. I figured that juggling between a mask and glasses would be kinda rough. Nails on friday and the rest is saturday morning... yay...

Boy i feel like shit.

Golf club (yeah, it's a club now) has its first game today. I don't think i'm gonna go. I don't feel good and everyone else is semi-professional. High 40s and low 50s. I'm like mid 60s. I suck. I'd just slow them down anyway.

ugh... sleepy...

Food For Thought

About 8 years ago a movie came out. My parents went to go see it. I wanted to go with them, but they talked me into staying with grandma. When they came back from the theatre, they were silent. It was a sad, almost reverant silence. I didn't even think about a movie that could get my father to cry.

About two years later, i heard about it again in my social studies class. The kids were raving about it. I felt like the only one who hadn't seen it. They described it as if it were a sort of "shoot-'em-up" gangbusters film. At that point, i wanted to see it so badly, just to fit in. I went home and asked my parents. They shook their heads and said that I was too young.

About two years ago, I was sitting at home with my grandmother thinking about some of the films i had always wanted to see and i mentioned that movie. My grandmother looked at me and said, "Yeah, I think you can handle it. It's not an enjoyable movie, but it is amazing." I nodded and said that i was ready for anything.

That day, we went to the video rental place and picked the movie up. I watched it in silent horror and pain. After the first twenty minutes I kinda wanted to shut it off and walk away, but I stayed put. I figured that this was the closest i was going to come to even barely understanding what those people went through. I felt terrible that war is so glorified and the dead are only numbers. It made me think about things that I had never thought about before.

I'm pretty sure that this week has been labled "Holocaust Rememberance Week." We walked into Mr. Wynn's class laughing about our conversation with Mr. Holst from last period. Mr. Wynn mentioned that he was showing Saving Private Ryan to some of his classes. I jumped a bit. Then Sasha had the audacity to bash the movie with only having seen the first ten minutes (or so he said). I shook my head. He said that it was just another war movie; nothing even remotely different about it. Mr. Wynn tried to tell him that it brought in a terrible human mortality aspect and that was what made it so amazing. And Sasha said, "So how can you make an entire movie about saving one man?" Mr. Wynn sighed and said that he was going to show us the part after the horrific beginning where they are typing the telegrams. But Sasha said that the beginning was plain and that it was a good thing we were skipping it. So Mr. Wynn stopped the tape, rewound it and started it from the beginning. Sasha was silent. The one time he opened his mouth dureing the entire thing his voice was shakey and broken up. He said, "What the hell were they thinking? How were they going to get up that beach?" And then he was silent again. I was silent, everyone was silent. I wanted to cry, I know everyone felt the same. And even though he had seen it a million times, Mr. Wynn was still rivveted to it with watering eyes.

It was horrific. Horrific in its true nature. No ghosts or supernaturals. No hack-saw murders. No talking dolls. Just plain, brutal reality and that was what made it so terrible. Reality is scary and nothing else really is. We watch "horror" movies for the shock value, but to sit down and see reality is the scariest things of all. Words and numbers mean nothing. It's seeing it and hearing it that counts. And even though it was an amazing movie, it was still nothing compared to what those veterans went through.

So yeah, I just wanted to write that down.

God bless those who fight and die for what they believe in...

And (again)...

I got these pretty wedg-like shoes for prom. They are from Aerosoles and they are a beautiful shade of purple. I know, I know, there is no purple in the dress BUT it works out really nicely. It adds an extra layer to the ombre, which, I think, is pretty cool.

I think that I'm just gonna straighten and crimp my hair for prom. That sounds simple and elegant.

I need to work on my mask, but the crystals haven't come yet. Mom and I ordered some crystals on line and they haven't come yet... Hmm... But once they do get here, it's craming time!

I'm also getting contacts!!!! YAY!!!! My glasses just don't work with the mask, so Mom agreed to get me a set of contacts!!!! That is so cool, isn't it? I bet a year ago she would've never even thought about it...

My Story is Finished

I finished my story, The Rin Wars.

It is:

121 pages (standard printer paper pages)

232 pages (standard paper back)

50,090 words

2,932 Paragraphs

4877 Lines

27 Chapters + and Epilog and a Prolog

And it's complete. Maybe I'll change a few minor details, but I doubt it. I want to hand it out but I'm not sure of who I should give it to... I need a beta reader! Someone I know, but not well enough to go easy on me with criticism. I really do want it to be brutal. As much as it will probably hurt, it'll be for the bettering of the story (and myself) as a whole. But who can I give it to... My brother has already read it but he was no help in the structure department. So who... Hmm... I need to think about that.

And...

I got accepted to New Paltz! yay. That makes all four. Kinda cool considering I went into this year affraid that no college would accept me...

Good Day...

Guess What?

Guess?

Guess!

Ready?

ED IS DEAD! OH YEAH! UHUH UHUHUHUH! YEAH! KILLED BY HIS 400 YEAR OLD BROTHER! HOT DAMN! I SAW IT! BLOOD EVERYWHERE! RIGIMORTUS AND STIFFENED BODIES! ANIMATED IT MAY BE BUT DAMN... WORLD WAR I ED DIED IN A ZEPPLIN FIRE SO THAT ALCHEMY ED COULD BREAK THROUGH THE GATE AND FIGHT ENVY! ENVY TURNED INTO ALL SORTS OF PEOPLE, BUT ED DIDN'T STOP POUNDING HIM UNTIL HE TOOK ON THE FORM OF HIS 400 YEAR OLD BROTHER! ENVY! HOHENHEIM'S FIRST SON WHO DIED OF MERCURY POISONING! DAMN! ROSE BROKE AND CRIED, AL FREAKED OUT AND THERE'S ONLY ONE EPISODE LEFT!

ZERO'S LOSE AND EPYON'S ALIVE! I'M WATCHING GUNDAM WING AGAIN AND BOY DOES IT FEEL WEIRD. MEL HAS THE TAPES SO WE'VE BEEN WATCHING SELECTIVE EPISODES. HEERO'S INSANE BECAUSE OF EPYON, TREIZE IS PUSHING HIM TO THE LIMIT, MILLIRADO IS FIGHTING AS ZECHS, RALENA IS PLAYING THE PART OF SANQUE EMBASSADORE, LADY UNE IS "DEAD", RUMMEFELLER IS FASCIST, DOROTHY SHOWED UP, QUATRE'S HEADING BACK FOR SANDROCK, TROWA'S FLOATIN' ALONG IN THE MIDDLE OF OUTTER SPACE, WU FEI IS STILL A SHOVENISTIC BASTARD, AND DUO IS A MESS BECAUSE OF ZERO! WOW... JUST PLAIN WOW... I KNEW I LIKED DUO... (yes!)

good day...

Oh yeah... He's dead alright... Yup... Dead... (It looked so cool when they zoomed in on his over-dilating eyes... creepy... And the blood... it pooled out slowy around him... The only thing that could have made it more real would be... if it were real! Awesome death scene for an animation. Go Ed! Sacrifice yourself for the bettering of anime {maybe even regular animation} everywhere!)

Yeah, sorry 'bout that, but Deathscythe is dead... But don't worry! Deathescyth Hell is better! But Custom rocks! You get what you deserve in the end... Baddass wing span and a real effing scythe! Kick ass Shinigomi! (And like O said, it hurts less if you cry outloud...)

good day...

March First

So Bored...

It's getting to that time of year where things are getting stale.

February is gone. Spring Break and Prom are in April.

Prom

Here's My Dress (as you may have suspected, that's not me in it)

Here's a close-up of the wonderful beading (not close enough to really enjoy it though)

And here's the Back

(pics courtesy of Bella Formals)

Not the best of quality, but that's what I could get. There will be more pictures (with me in the dress) after Prom.

Having lost almost 22 lbs, this dress looks great on me. We found it in a Pennsylvania formal chain called Head to Toe. We found the place when we were at a bridal expo in Wilkes Barre with my soon-to-be aunt. The company had put on a "fashion show" that really wasn't any good, but I did see some dresses that were just amazing. So, the next weekend (last weekend) we )Mom and I) went to the direct outlet. I saw many of the beautiful dress that I saw in the fashion show, but they were all extremely expensive. So we looked around until we found this one. I tried it on, it fit and looked great. I tried a few others on, but I obviously walked away with this one. The people there were nice and honest. They told me when I didn't look good and usually I agreed. They weren't pestering me and pushing me to buy, they were just there to help me out when I needed them. Once they got my name they acted like I was their only customer (the place was, in fact, packed). We weren't there for long and we scored a beautiful, well-priced dress (under $200). YAY!

Now that I have the dress, I need to design the mask. I was thinking about using the same colors and trying to mimick the beading on the top of the dress at the top of the mask... But that's later. I'll post pics of the mask when it's done.

AND ONE MORE THING...

I'm 18 years old and registered to vote. So watch out, you conservative bastards, you've got a new enemy on your hands...

BEWARE!!!

A MAJOR Update (as if I have any real fans)

ALL IN ALL

Colleges on the table:

Mercyhurst College
Wilkes University
SUNY Onianta

I'm still waiting on New Paltz, but as I know them, they are slow and selective.

I'll probably be going to Mercyhurst because if I do go there i won't have to do grad work; I'll be job ready right off the bat. Mercyhurst has offered me a similar scholarship to the one Wilkes offered me: $8,ooo a year based on SAT scores (Which suck: 1090). Mercyhurst has also offered me $15,000 a year in student aide and that's without the FAFSA. Mom has already filled it out, but it hasn't been processed. I'm sorry that I probably won't be going to Wilkes, but my parents are right. In the end, Mercyhurst is the best choice for my chosen field of study.

Community Service Insanity

The year is almost over (as I was just informed by a friend) and I have about 3 hours and 30 mins of community service. Only 36 hours and 30 mins left. I made a huge mistake in trying to do andything with Golden Hill. I offered them an hour of my service a day and they packed it. i have to help two different teachers and help one individual student. That's a lot for an hour. They gave me less than five minutes to get there and back and although Golden Hill is close, there are other factors that must be accounted for. I'm calling Mr. DePace today. It's kinda late, but i know that they still need the help. I'm going to try to widdle it down to one teacher. The kid doesn't bother me as long as it has nothing to do with helping him with homework, but if i can, I may try to get out of it entirely. if I do go with it, I'm going to try to make it under the table, because going through the school has been a mess. The business woman in charge of this kind of thing is a ditz. She doesn't understand that the hours are for NHS, not credtis. I should never have gone to her in the first place.

Mel has told me that the Pine Island Ambulance Corps need some help with rig inspections. It's grunt work but it's more to my speed than helping teachers and babysitting some kid. If I do try to go with dropping Golden Hill I have a method of making up for it...

The Math:

Let's say that each rig inspection (of which i have been informed that there is about one a week) takes 2 hours (probably more, but let's just go with that). That's 20 inspections for 40 hours.

Now, I know full well that there aren't 20 weeks left in the school year so let's tally up the little service i have already:

3 hours for Rowgatta
30 mins for guidance work

That leaves me with 36 hours and 30 mins. that would leave me with 19 inspections. Okay, still, there aren't even 19 weeks left so what else is there? Library work. I think Casey has stopped doing it so that leaves room for me so even with only 12 inspections, I can dedicate and hour a day to the library. 8 days will get me to 40 hours.

If the Rig thing doesn't work though, Golden Hill is the only way to go. It better work then... I hope...

Prom Complaints

Ugh. Prom is going to be the same as last year. No matter what I do I'm going to wind up sorry for it. Even though I wanted to go to prom with someone this year, I'll be going alone. I was in a situation that I didn't much like before I made up my mind. I wish I was like Mel, callous when i have to be. I hate when messages get confused. That's the problem. I made a mistake last year and now it's haunting me in my sleep. Why do I give a damn about people? How was I to know that just being nice could be construed as relationship material? I hate being the way I am. I have to learn to keep my words to myself. But no matter what, I'm going to this prom. The juniors are doing Midnight Masquerade as their theme. YES! I've always wanted to go to a masquerade! You know, I suggested it to one of my friends. I'm so happy that they went through with it. I have to find my dress soon because prom is the end of April instead of early May. Once I have my dress, I'm making my own custom mask. I'm so excited!

Resolution

But that's besides the point. Do I sound like a spoiled, selfish, self-centered bitch? Well tough. This is a blog and I am going to say what I feel without being affraid of the consequences! I want to bring a friend, but I don't want to regret it! And that's what I'm affraid of. Unless I go alone, both of the alternatives have grim consequences in my mind.

FictionPress

I'm working on a story right now called The Rin Wars. Thus far, I kinda like it, but there is always room for it to go bad. This is my longest project. Although Aenaria is 21 chapters, it was originally only one long one. I just chopped it up at the page breaks in a pathetic attempt to get it more publicity. But as the eager person I am, I reposted all 21 chapters at once adn nothing really happened. I would really like it if some people got around to reading it. It's not done, in fact, it's far from done, but at this point in time I'm just cranking away at it.

A correlation

I've actually noticed that when I write, my grades get better. Like this year my grades have been ten times better than last year and I'm dedicating most of my free time to writing my stories. And it's even better when I have one big one on the plate.

Tai bo and the facts of life

I got an 80 on my tai bo quiz. I agree with one of his comments, but not the other. Oh well. Tai bo is over and soccer is on the horrizon. I love soccer. It lets me release my anger and be mean and aggressive without getting into any trouble. I really wish that I had gone out for sports when I was younger.

After the five weeks we've been doing tai bo in gym I've lost about 10 lbs. I'm so happy! That makes a total of 22 lbs this year! I'm down to 178 from a disgraceful... 200. Yeah. It was that bad last year.

Golf

The team sunk this year. No interest and we didn't put forth much effort in advertising. But it's not all bad. At least Mel and I won't be dead next quarter. But the best part is, it's a club now! For both sexes! This is going to be great! No pressure, no exhaustion, no worries! Even though Mel's and my parents don't like the idea, Mel and I think its great. With our college courses at hand, it gives us more time to study and do homework (and write, in my case). I remember last year when Mel was close to collapse. Regardless of what you think, golf is tough. You try walking at least two miles on a standard course at a stop and go pace and swining a club at a ball and then waiting for everyone else to do the same thing. Maybe I'll be better now that the pressure is off. Hickory Hills is giving us a nice discount for the club, which is nice. I'm actually a bit excited this time around.

In conclusion:

That's most of my life to date. Take it or leave it.

Long enough for you?

Okey Dokey

I got my acceptance letter from Wilkes last Thursday. Paul copped out on our trip to New Paltz so we took Mel instead. It was fun. I got a new bag, but whatever. When we dropped Mel off I wlaked in with her. She went through her mail and found something from Wells, her secondary choice. She was accepted. Yay Mel!

Anyway just quick: Got an -A on my presentation and an -A on my report for Escobedo. YAY! He left a comment that said that it was very well done. There were just a few very stupid gramar mistakes.

Bell rang gotta go...

I did it!

I made my Escobedo v. Illinois presentation today! I went first because I was too frightened to wait any longer. Everyone liked my power point. I guess it covered everything because no one had anything to say. It seemed to go way too quickly. The presentation also included a quiz component. 3-5 questions. I handed that out and then I was done.

David Kellemen went after me and I almost cried for him. He was totally unprepaired. He was reading from his report and writing on the chalk board. He seemed flustered and seriously confused. He stopped before he was finished. I felt so bad for him. He had been up there for ten minutes already and he couldn't fudge another five.

So anyway... I'm still waiting to hear from my colleges. I feel pretty good about Wilkes ;D When the letters of acceptance come home we (my family) are going to New Paltz. Yay Sushi!